Monday, 30 July 2012

Ramadan Shows My Dark Side

Assalamualaikum...

I'm so frustrated with myself.
I believe...
... it is every Muslim's dream.
You know!
To make a difference during this fasting month.
But... why??
Why I keep doing the same mistake.
*sigh*

I dah tak tahu dah nak kata apa.
Apa yang tahu...
... dalam masa 10 hari pertama Ramadan ni,
I masih lagi tak dapat nak ubah satu perkara.
Satu perkara yang sangatlah buruk.
Malah, makin teruk jadinya.
Mungkin disebabkan kedegilan dalam diri ni.
Mungkin juga disebabkan I ni tak istiqomah.
Betul kata orang...
istiqomah itu sangat susah.
Huhuhu...

Actually,
I don't know.
I cannot blame all the satan and devil.
They're being 'handcuffed', right?
So,
who should I blame on?
It's me!!!
=_=

Dah bertahun-tahun macam ni.
Cuba untuk mulakan perubahan pada bulan yang mulia ni.
Tapi masih tak berjaya.
Makinlah I kecewa bila I sedar yang Allah masih beri segala nikmat.
Sedangkan I ni bergelen-gelen dosa. );

Thanks for the tweet, Maria! 
I feel the same way too. 


All I can do is don't give up.
I keep telling myself that I really can change.
Why?
Because I'm an optimistic person.
I want to change like so bad.
To be a better Muslim.
Not just for this month but for the rest of my life.

Bro Maher, thank you for reminding me. (:

I rasa masih belum terlewat lagi.
Kena berusaha lebih gigih untuk merealisasikan impian ni.
InsyaAllah, I akan cuba sehabis baik untuk melawan nafsu.
Ya Allah...
please guide me.
I'm so helpless, o' Allah. 

p/s: SMKAJB is the best environment to spend Ramadan.

2 comments:

Cha'a said...

sobs. me too. to be honest, i feel like Ramadhan kali ni i sincerely nk fill it with kebaikan. selalunya more to ikut2 and terpaksa. it feels lighter if you hv great intention along with the deed. keep up with the good intentions, mate. it will open up ur heart and get the anggota to complete the rest, insyaAllah~.. :)

Mikah Lurima said...

Cha'a>> Right? No excuse actually. Both of us are in a holiday mode. Terpaksa memang tak best tp still better drp tak buat apa apa langsung.
Thanks for encouraging me. I need friends to be with me. Do the same thing like we used to. InsyaAllah... insyaAllah... u too okay! Semoga Ramadan kali lebih baik drp sebelumnya. Amin~